Archive for March, 2009
I can remember years ago, holding my friends’ babies and thinking, “This has got to be the greatest joy of all”. I would cuddle them and snuggle them; the smell was overwhelming…it intoxicated me. I thought that I would make a great father one day. As it turns out, I AM a great father, but not in the way I thought I would be. I think alot of people go into parenting with the mindset that it’s going to be a hard job but not REALLY understanding how hard it is.
I’ve been divorced for about 2 years now. I have primary custody of my two girls; it’s still joint custody, but it just means I make the decisions and have legal rights for their welfare. The custoday is split about 65/35 (me/her). As such, I’ve had to spend a considerable amount of time with my girls doing things that maybe most dads would not. That doesn’t make me any better than them, but it’s put alot of things in perspective for me. My life revolves around my girls…I don’t get to do alot of extracurricular things without well prepped setup long before the event.
The reason I bring all this up is because on Friday, my youngest had to have surgery to have tubes put in both ears again. It’s a mildly invasive surgery but to a 3 year old, it’s the scariest thing in the world. My ex-wife was there as well. Of course we both want to be there for our child, but quietly in the back of our minds we’re hoping she picks me.
When the surgery was done, we both went into the recovery room. She woke up kind of cranky of course and immediately wanted to be held. My ex went to reach for her and Dylen said “No, I want Daddy!”. I immediately picked her up and cuddled her, but in my head I was revelling with a quite victory. Please don’t misunderstand my statements…I want my girls to be close to their mother and I encourage them to be so, but I think every parent always hopes that they’ll be the favorite….that’s not a mean comment, it’s just natural. My point in all of this is that in a split second, I realized that I was doing something right. I realized that through all of the sacrifice, through all of the long drawn out nights of sick children, through all the missed opportunities to be social….I realized that I wouldn’t trade my girls for all the money in the world because they are my world…they are my everything. As hard as it is sometimes…it’s worth it. Does that make sense?
Overall, I enjoy the internet…I love what it offers, I am captivated by it’s enormous volume of content, and I relish in the social aspects of it. However, sometimes I find it difficult to muster up the motivation to write about anything of mild value to the blogging community. I don’t know if it’s necessarily a lack of content (cuz we all know there’s never a shortage of tech news or ignorant people) so much as it is that I just have to be more disciplined on putting forth the effort of writing my thoughts.
I sit on Twitter and Facebook all day long…literally…and I consider myself a fairly aggressive Tweeter. The advantage to Twitter though is that it’s in quick burst…140 characters of quick and easy goodness; no time to think about it, you just write it.
I’m sure I’m too late to make a New Years resolution, but maybe a 2nd quarter resolution…to give more attention to blogging and videos.
So keep me on the straight and narrow people. If you don’t see new content in a week’s time, then hammer me…bug me…don’t give up on me.
For years now, my obsession with even the most ridiculous of techy gadgets has gotten the best of me. I’ve found myself even scraping by with a few coins clinging in my pockets for the mere satisfaction of holding yet another invention of post-modern evolution. Over that past few years though, I’ve grown; matured if you will. I’ve learned that I have responsibility and my love of these purely inanimate objects can ruin my financial well-being…and so I’ve foregone many new creations.
When the “netbooks” came out, I was all but too unimpressed with them. Nothing about an 8.9″ screen bedazzled me. After months of reading of their hackability and ultra-über mobility, I started taking them a bit more seriously. After all…they were cheap; dirt cheap!
I finally reasoned with sanity and thought, “Well if nothing else, my kids can use it.” So I sold an old iBook I had that was laying around, and now I am the proud owner of an Asus EeePC Model 1000H. For the moment, I’m strictly running the pre-installed Windows XP Home Edition (SP3) but may sooner than later, dual boot Ubuntu as well. I have wrestled with the idea of hacking MacOS X on here as well, but given that my current MacBook is completely successful in all it’s day-to-day activities, why bother. I will be using this pretty much strictly as a work laptop. No, it’s not replacing anything, but when I’m at home, it will be used for work functions with the often necessary loafing-while-surfing function. At $329, it’s cheap enough to toy with and at worst, I’ll claim it for business use and be done with it. Plus my kids will enjoy it since the keyboard is just perfect for their tiny little fingers.
Newegg.com has gratiously provided me with a 2GB RAM stick to upgrade from it’s default 1GB (associated with a $21.99 cost of course). I’m not much for reviews (mostly because I’ve never done one) but know that I’m highly happy with the lil booger in it’s first 4 days.